Serious Business

The other day Josh mentioned that when he first stalked me online (if you haven't heard the story about how we met... just wait, it's coming)

He said that he found my blog and when he looked at it he thought "Oh, she must not be that serious about blogging"

Whhaaaattt.

Okay fine. So I don't post every day or every week or even every month. OOPS. So yeah. Maybe I'm not that serious about it. But I LOVE it and one of my dreams is to be a B L O G G E R so what the heck?

Honestly, I'm mostly just scared. Because what if I love it and I think it's going to be huge and then it isn't?

Or what if I put my whole heart and soul out there and the response is not good?

Who. Cares.

So there's some big things coming to Carlee's Modern Life. Be ready. Be pumped.

Love you.

xo,

Car

Life's a....

Party. 

Adventure. 

Nightmare. 

Exactly what you make it. 

Sometimes when I finally have a moment to look back at the last two months of my life the only words that come to mind are 

Holy. Crap. 

Let's look at a snapshot of my life in January: Part time school, stable job that I hated, in a relationship that was fun but not all that promising. Excited about school and life. Solid plans, nothing crazy happening at all. 

Snapshot from February: hating school. New job that was not delivering all that was promised and was shady at best. Unhappy in previously mentioned relationship. All plans and hopes set on running away from life and moving to California for an indefinite amount of time. Mild chaos, but manageable. 

Snapshot from the last two weeks: finals week, fired from previous job with zero warning and zero explanation, failed finance midterm, in a new relationship that is moving forward and progressing and all I ever wanted, California dream crushed, future life plans 100% up in the air. Complete madness. 

I'm sure by this point you are asking some small questions. Like how did I get fired? What am I doing now? Why did you want to run away in the first place? 

I still don't have answers for any of those questions. But despite the chaos and the uncertainty I am HAPPY. because happiness in no way depends upon your circumstances. 

Xo, 

Car

2015 year in review

2015 was a good one. Filled with a lot of learning, a lot of laughter and a few tears. I loved a lot, got my heart broken a few times, and made friends and memories I'll keep forever. Here's my year in review via pictures. 

In January I decided to pack up my life and move to Provo for the following school year. One of the scariest decisions I've made yet, but also one of the most rewarding. 

I caught my first fish! And probably my last. I rediscovered my inner granola and my love for nature and all of God's creations. 

I bought myself a trip to California to visit my best beezy and the happiest place on earth. One of my best presents to myself yet. 

I took too many selfies with my best-tiny-friend 

And witnessed the love of God in so many ways. 

I witnessed my sister become the happiest I've ever seen her, and learned so much about myself, love, and what it really means to have Christ-like love. This is one of the memories and experiences I am most grateful for. 

I spent a lot of days with my best friend and she rescued me from Provo when I first got here and had a mini quarter life crisis. 💛

I ran away from all responsibilities for a week. Right in the middle of the semester, to take these two to the place where I found my Savior. I hope they loved it as much as I did. 

Then I blinked and it was the holidays. And I was blessed to spend it with the best people. Maybe this year they were extra sweet because the semester that had just ended was so awful. Or maybe they were a little sweeter because I might finally be coming to understand the beauty of simplicity. Either way, I am grateful. 

So here's to a new year. With the same me. But isn't it funny how, whether or not we set resolutions, by the end of the year we are a new person. Maybe our skin is a little thicker, our hearts a little softer, or our minds a little more open. This year I'm still working on my resolutions, but I think this picture sums them up pretty well. 

Sending you all my best for 2016. 

Xo, 

Car